Mom, I miss you. I wish you were with me.
I could feel you at Joci's baby shower today. It made me miss you more. Some days are harder than others to be without you.. today is one of them. The pain in my heart is so strong right now. I feel like my chest is compressing completely down on me. It hurts to breathe even.
I stopped drinking October 7th, 2012. Exactly 11 months ago. But I can't remember why. All I can think of is the relief it brought me from this pain... how it made me numb and silenced the screaming inside me.
I need you mom. I wish you were here.
I love you.
